und wir schreiben das jahr 2014..

oooh nooo ... (Katy Perry-Dark Horse Zeit 0:00-0:02) bester teil des liedes.

April 2014

da sitze ich nun. die gedanken schwirren im Kopf umher, wie ein wild gewordenes bienennest. einen bienennest welches umgeworfen und mit steinen beworfen wurde.alle bienen auf alarm. es gibt bienen die sind einfach nur verärgert und suchen sich den nächsten schuldigenden sie stechen können. es gibt die traurigen bienen, die dem selbst aufgebauten nachtrauern und nicht glauben können, dass jetzt alles so schnell kaputt gegangen ist. es war doch so schön und sicher aufgebaut. eine dieser bienen die noch daran glaubt, man könnte etwas sicher aufbauen. SICHER, gibt es nicht. die biene wird es wohl noch lernen, vielleicht sogar mit mir zusammen. die bienen, die sich nicht mehr trauen zu fliegen.diese bleiben liegen. sie liegen und warten auf einen unglaublich erleuchtenden kraftmoment. das kann dauern. es gibt die bienen die sich gar nicht auf regen und sofort beginnen neu zu bauen. neu bauen mit der starken motivation zu einem neuen funktionierenden nest.

welche bienen in diesem wildgewordenen nest überwiegen, kann ich nicht sagem.

+
- 30 kg
+ funktionierende wohngemeinschaft
+ neuer job, herausforderung geschafft
+ annerkennung
+ lob
+ viele liebe leute
+ frühling
+ viele schöne pläne


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eine herzensnachbarin weg, die ein stückchen mit sich mitriss
selbstzweifel noch da
ein kreis droht zu verbrechen
liebe wo sie nicht sein sollte (2 parts)
böse worte, kein verständnis



bildzusammenfassung

wake me up.. when it's all over

 

 

 

die kleinen dinge, die man akzeptieren. so vielen ziele, grosse stücke der ziele sind erreicht. doch plötzlich hast du ein neues ziel, das ziel, das du wieder gesund wirst, ohne dass du gemerkt hast dass du krank bist. ein unpassenden moment konnte man sich wohl nicht aussuchen. bei mir liefs gerade so was von rund, dass kaum ohne ein grinsen auf dem gesicht sein konnte. gerade als ich begann gesund (bis aufs rauchen) zu leben, es schaffte ohne alhohol schlechtem essen , dafür mit ausreichend sport ein bisschen durchzustarten. kommen alle diese punkte auf mich zurück. es wird mir zum vorwurf gemacht. ein schreckliches gefühl. so hilflos, aber...aber...aber... ich bin ja gerade am so richtig durchstarten.. blicke die mir sagen, jaja, dass sagt ja jeder wenn mal was passiert, treffen mich sehr hart. nun ja, die werden ja sehen.

denkst du denn da genau so

Ging es nach mir, sollten wir
vielmehr aufeinander schauen,
wofür es alles zu geben lohnt
ist ein großer Traum
Ein einziger freundlicher Blick
macht manchmal wieder alles gut,
ein guter Freund - neuen Mut

Denkst du denn da genauso
in etwa so wie ich.
Gehts dir da genauso,
wie gehts dir eigentlich?

Ging es nach mir, sollten wir
wieder öfter in den Himmel schauen,
denn manchmal fehlt es uns schon sehr
an Gelassenheit, an Vertrauen.
Die kleinen Dinge machen es schön,
auch wenn sie schnell vergehen.
Es ist gut Menschen lachen zu sehen

Denkst du da denn genauso
in etwa so wie ich
gehts dir da genauso
wie gehts dir eigentlich?
Sag wie gehts dir eigentlich

...

???????

mirror - justin timberlake

Aren't you somethin' to admire, cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallell on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original, cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Baby you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

You are you are the love of my life

und

es chunnt alles guet!!:)

je veux l'amour, d'la joie, de la bonne humeur..

Donnez moi une suite au Ritz, je n'en veux pas !

Des bijoux de chez CHANEL, je n'en veux pas !
Donnez moi une limousine, j'en ferais quoi ? papalapapapala
Offrez moi du personnel, j'en ferais quoi ?
Un manoir a Neufchatel, ce n'est pas pour moi.
Offrez moi la Tour Eiffel, j'en ferais quoi ? papalapapapala

Je Veux d'l'amour, d'la joie, de la bonne humeur, ce n'est pas votre argent qui f'ra mon bonheur, moi j'veux crever la main sur le coeur papalapapapala allons ensemble, découvrir ma liberté, oubliez donc tous vos clichés, bienvenue dans ma réalité.

J'en ai marre de vos bonnes manières, c'est trop pour moi !
Moi je mange avec les mains et j'suis comme ça !
J'parle fort et je suis franche, excusez moi !
Finie l'hypocrisie moi j'me casse de là !
J'en ai marre des langues de bois !
Regardez moi, toute manière j'vous en veux pas et j'suis comme çaaaaaaa (j'suis comme çaaa) papalapapapala

Je Veux d'l'amour, d'la joie, de la bonne humeur, ce n'est pas votre argent qui f'ra mon bonheur, moi j'veux crever la main sur le coeur papalapapapala Allons ensemble découvrir ma liberté, oubliez donc tous vos clichés, bienvenue dans ma réalité !

Donnez moi une suite au Ritz, je n'en veux pas !

Des bijoux de chez CHANEL, je n'en veux pas !
Donnez moi une limousine, j'en ferais quoi ? papalapapapala
Offrez moi du personnel, j'en ferais quoi ?
Un manoir a Neufchatel, ce n'est pas pour moi.
Offrez moi la Tour Eiffel, j'en ferais quoi ? papalapapapala

Je Veux d'l'amour, d'la joie, de la bonne humeur, ce n'est pas votre argent qui f'ra mon bonheur, moi j'veux crever la main sur le coeur papalapapapala allons ensemble, découvrir ma liberté, oubliez donc tous vos clichés, bienvenue dans ma réalité.

J'en ai marre de vos bonnes manières, c'est trop pour moi !
Moi je mange avec les mains et j'suis comme ça !
J'parle fort et je suis franche, excusez moi !
Finie l'hypocrisie moi j'me casse de là !
J'en ai marre des langues de bois !
Regardez moi, toute manière j'vous en veux pas et j'suis comme çaaaaaaa (j'suis comme çaaa) papalapapapala

Je Veux d'l'amour, d'la joie, de la bonne humeur, ce n'est pas votre argent qui f'ra mon bonheur, moi j'veux crever la main sur le coeur papalapapapala Allons ensemble découvrir ma liberté, oubliez donc tous vos clichés, bienvenue dans ma réalité !

if you close your eyes

I was left to my own devices
Many days fell away with nothing to show

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Great clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?

How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

We were caught up and lost in all of our vices
In your pose as the dust settles around us

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Great clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

Oh where do we begin?
The rubble or our sins?
Oh where do we begin?
The rubble or our sins?

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Great clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?

brave

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

earth

it's never good enough.

I can't buy your love, don't even wanna try.
Sometimes the truth won't make you happy, so I'm not gonna lie.
But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you,
It beats only for you.

I know i'm far from perfect, nothin' like your entourage
I can't grant you any wishes, I won't promise you the stars.
But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you,
It beats only for you.

Cause when you've given up.
When no matter what you do it's never good enough.
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,
Thats when you feel my kind of love.

And when you're crying out.
When you fall and then can't pick, you're heavy on the ground
When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around.
That's when you feel my kind of love.

You won't see me at the parties, I guess I'm just no fun.
I won't be turning up the radio singing "Baby You're The One".

But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you
It beats only for you.

I know sometimes I get angry, and I say what I don't mean.
I know I keep my heart protected, far away from my sleeve.
But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you,
It beats only for you.

Cause when you've given up.
When no matter what you do it's never good enough.
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,
Thats when you feel my kind of love.

And when you're crying out.
When you fall and then can't pick, you're heavy on the ground
When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around.
That's when you feel my kind of love.

Cause when you've given up.
When no matter what you do it's never good enough.
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,
Thats when you feel my kind of love

 

I want to give love to the people who need it..

macken

sommer-hits ! =)

 

 

pain is.

Pain is being lost
It's being me losing the ones I love
Pain is watching my mum and cry
Just can't stop the tears
Is what I've licked on myself
And it's how I feel
Can't keep pretending
It's gonna be alright

'Cause I don't need this love
When it hurt so much
I don't need this love
Sometimes it ain't above
I feel abandoned, straitened,lonely
Won't you wake me from this dream

Pain is losing hope
When there's no way out
And nobody's home
Pain is just part of me
Feelin helpless inside
It's everything when I believe
When I got nowhere to hide
Can't stop the emptiness
Even if I try

'Cause I don't need this love
When it hurt so much
I don't need this love
Sometimes it ain't a love
I feel abandoned, straitened,lonely
Won't you help me mama
Soulless, helpless
Mama won't you wake me from this dream

Oh, can anybody hear me,
Can anybody feel me
'Cause I don't even know which way to go, ohohoh

Can anybody hear me,
Can anybody feel me
Can't keep pretending
It's gonna be alright

'Cause I don't need this love
When it hurt so much
I don't need this love
Sometimes it ain't enough
I feel abandoned, straitened,soulless
Won't you help me
Mama soulless, hopeless
Mama won't you wake me from this dream...

it's just the point of view.

attitude

jeder tag
jede stunde
jede minute
jede sekunde
jeder moment
jeder augeblick

, der schmerzt
, der erfreut
, der mich zum lachen bringt
, der mich zum denken bringt
, der mich fliegen lässt
, der meine welt erschüttert


gibt für mich eine unbezahlbare, unvergleichliche, einzigartige erkenntnis. meine erkenntnis.


ich fühle den ganzen schmerz
aber ich lache von ganzem herzen.



"the problem is maybe not the problem. it's your attitude about the problem" captain jack sparrow.

everything that downs me makes me wanna fly!

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars, yeah we'll be counting stars

I see this life like a swinging vine
Swing my heart across the line
And my face is flashing signs
Seek it out and you shall find
Oh, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
I feel something so right
Doing the wrong thing
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars

I feel the love and I feel it burn
Down this river, every turn
Hope is a four-letter word
Make that money, watch it burn
Oh, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Everything that kills me makes feel alive

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars

Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been playing hard,
Sitting, no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be, counting stars

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sing in the river
The lessons are learnt

to name it heartless sounds like a joke

I couldn't care less!

so what's it gonna be
if you don't like my peaches
then don't shake the tree
maybe it's sad but it's easy
the sick ship still rolls

and takes so little to please me
go cross me off your list

no use to be a part of
a world that don't exist

I'm giving up the fight
I never getting paid
but somewhere there's a light
I couldn't care less

'bout sunny or shine

I couldn't care less

what broke me this time

I couldn't care less

that's why I'm drummin' it out

I couldn't care less
that's all I care about

such a good drama

I couldn't care less
that's all I care about
if I am bored though I'm bound

maybe I'm lost
but I don't need to be found

my dreams don't match my pay
I'll be resting in my cage

and forever is just a day
why, where and how
fuck the past
the past ain't now
'cause I ain't got the time
some things could be better
but there's too much on mind

I know you care..

..Clinging to me
Like a last breath you would breathe
You were like home to me
I don't recognize this street
Please don't close your eyes
Don't know where to look without them
Outside the cars speed by

I've never heard them until now
I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there is trouble ahead I can feel it
You were just saving yourself when you hide it
Yeah I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead and you knew it
I'll be saving myself from the ruin
And I know you care

I used to run down the stairs
To the door and I thought you were there
To shape to comfort of us
Two lovers locked out of love
Oh, but I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there is trouble ahead I can feel it
You were just saving yourself when you hide it
Yeah I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead and you knew it
I'll be saving myself from the ruin

I know it wasn't always wrong
But i've never known a winter so cold
No I don't warm my hands in your coat
But I still hope
Cause this is how things ought to have been
And I know the words are there
Wasn't all that it seemed
Why can't I dream
Why can't I dream
Cause I know you care
And I know you care
I know you care
I know you care
I know it's always been there